Every so often life delivers a shock to your system. Not the kind that comes from a single random moment, but the kind that exposes the slow drift that has been happening underneath. We like to believe we stay the course, yet the truth is less flattering. We drift. We get complacent. We overlook the small cracks because they don’t announce themselves. And they widen quietly.
Emily Dickinson once wrote that “crumbling is not an instant’s act,” and she was right. Collapse is never sudden. Things rarely fall apart all at once. It happens in the unnoticed space between intention and action, between what we meant to do and what we allowed to slip. Then something breaks the momentum. A jarring moment cuts through the noise and forces you to see what you ignored. It can feel like hitting the brakes too late, or realizing someone had been hurting long before you ever thought to pay attention. In the end, it’s recognizing too late that the distance between where you started and where you ended up has grown larger than you ever meant for it to be. Without that disruption, many of us would keep moving on autopilot, convinced that everything is fine because nothing has exploded yet.
Awareness lives on the other side of that disruption. It’s uncomfortable, but it’s honest. When the pattern shatters, you can’t pretend anymore. You see what your habits protected you from seeing. You also see that what feels like a sudden collapse is almost never sudden at all. It’s the final expression of everything you ignored along the way. And once you see it, you cannot unsee it. Responsibility begins here, not in shame, but in understanding how you lost your way and how easily it can happen when you stop tending to what matters. Once the awareness arrives, you have to face the distance that grew while you were not paying attention.
And some distances are harder to face than others. When you end up farther from the person you intended to be, the space between who you were and who you became can feel impossible to close. Some rifts run too deep for repair. Yet others split open just enough to teach you something, the kind of detour that becomes the catalyst for the clarity you were missing. The hope isn’t to return to how things were. The hope is to return changed, with a better understanding of what matters so you don’t lose your way in the same manner again.
All this makes me think about a Japanese tradition called kintsugi. It’s the art of repairing broken pottery by rejoining the cracks with gold. The piece doesn’t return to what it was, but becomes something shaped by its history. Our own breaks work the same way. The lessons that come from those moments become the material that strengthens the weaker parts of our character. They reveal what we overlooked and what can no longer go unattended. And when you look closely at what the break exposed, you begin to understand how to move forward with more clarity than you had before.
And perhaps the hardest part about breaks is when they involve another person… the rules change. It’s no longer you holding a mirror up to yourself, it’s seeing your reflection in someone else’s pain and realizing what you missed. Some fractures reach a point where repair is no longer possible, no matter how much clarity is found afterward. The break can be so severe that no piece of the mirror is large enough to hold the two of you anymore. Others crack just wide enough to repair, if both people still see a way back. The distance revealed in those moments determines whether something can be mended or whether the lesson is all that remains.
The uncomfortable truth is that something has to give before awareness can surface. Things break because people lose their way, and in the aftermath comes the choice of how to move forward. Real growth is rare and often painful because it forces you to confront the gap between who you were and who you want to become, and that mirror is never easy to face. But that confrontation is often what breaks you open. The pain and the understanding arrive together, each shaping who you become next. You cannot predict where it will lead, but you can choose what you carry forward. In that choice, something better becomes possible.
Every so often life delivers a shock to your system. Not the kind that comes from a single random moment, but the kind that exposes the slow drift that has been happening underneath. We like to believe we stay the course, yet the truth is less flattering. We drift. We get complacent. We overlook the small cracks because they don’t announce themselves. And they widen quietly.
Emily Dickinson once wrote that “crumbling is not an instant’s act,” and she was right. Collapse is never sudden. Things rarely fall apart all at once. It happens in the unnoticed space between intention and action, between what we meant to do and what we allowed to slip. Then something breaks the momentum. A jarring moment cuts through the noise and forces you to see what you ignored. It can feel like hitting the brakes too late, or realizing someone had been hurting long before you ever thought to pay attention. In the end, it’s recognizing too late that the distance between where you started and where you ended up has grown larger than you ever meant for it to be. Without that disruption, many of us would keep moving on autopilot, convinced that everything is fine because nothing has exploded yet.
Awareness lives on the other side of that disruption. It’s uncomfortable, but it’s honest. When the pattern shatters, you can’t pretend anymore. You see what your habits protected you from seeing. You also see that what feels like a sudden collapse is almost never sudden at all. It’s the final expression of everything you ignored along the way. And once you see it, you cannot unsee it. Responsibility begins here, not in shame, but in understanding how you lost your way and how easily it can happen when you stop tending to what matters. Once the awareness arrives, you have to face the distance that grew while you were not paying attention.
And some distances are harder to face than others. When you end up farther from the person you intended to be, the space between who you were and who you became can feel impossible to close. Some rifts run too deep for repair. Yet others split open just enough to teach you something, the kind of detour that becomes the catalyst for the clarity you were missing. The hope isn’t to return to how things were. The hope is to return changed, with a better understanding of what matters so you don’t lose your way in the same manner again.
All this makes me think about a Japanese tradition called kintsugi. It’s the art of repairing broken pottery by rejoining the cracks with gold. The piece doesn’t return to what it was, but becomes something shaped by its history. Our own breaks work the same way. The lessons that come from those moments become the material that strengthens the weaker parts of our character. They reveal what we overlooked and what can no longer go unattended. And when you look closely at what the break exposed, you begin to understand how to move forward with more clarity than you had before.
And perhaps the hardest part about breaks is when they involve another person… the rules change. It’s no longer you holding a mirror up to yourself, it’s seeing your reflection in someone else’s pain and realizing what you missed. Some fractures reach a point where repair is no longer possible, no matter how much clarity is found afterward. The break can be so severe that no piece of the mirror is large enough to hold the two of you anymore. Others crack just wide enough to repair, if both people still see a way back. The distance revealed in those moments determines whether something can be mended or whether the lesson is all that remains.
The uncomfortable truth is that something has to give before awareness can surface. Things break because people lose their way, and in the aftermath comes the choice of how to move forward. Real growth is rare and often painful because it forces you to confront the gap between who you were and who you want to become, and that mirror is never easy to face. But that confrontation is often what breaks you open. The pain and the understanding arrive together, each shaping who you become next. You cannot predict where it will lead, but you can choose what you carry forward. In that choice, something better becomes possible.